Stop & Stare

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin' off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see

They're tryin' to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
I'm gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, You don't need...

What you need, what you need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
And I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see






i was listening to this song while writing the sad post
awwwww



don't go !








when's Wednesday? when's Friday?
looking forward to physics tuition =D

Shelby's birthday

arhhhhhhhhhhhh



arhhhhhhhhhhhh





scream out loud, babe!!!





ok this is not a sad scream this is a happy scream!!!

I'm so happy today =D

early in the morning

I went to school as usual

once I sat down, I saw Chao Yang holding an extremely big card

I look at him with my eyes open wide and my jaws dropped

I was like omg, is this the big card Qing Yan was talking about?

because it's really big

anyone would be touched

even me, though I'm not the birthday girl

but I feel so proud to walk around with this card, with the big Happy Birthday in the front page

and I'm so glad that I was able to write my blessings on this card

we gave Shelby a goat which looks like pig or u can call it a pig which looks like goat

haha

and a water bottle, printing NO REGRET!

it suits her so much

1st recess

went to canteen with Qing Yan

same old days

we laughed and laughed over our silly jokes, silly imaginations

gosh I love that moment so much

class is as boring as usual, but no complaints today =D
all in my mind was Shelby is coming! Shelby is coming!


2nd recess
continue to write our big card in 4s(xiao)
ohmygod i always love 4s(xiao)
Kit Wai and Ming Hao always make ppl laugh their ass off
and Chao Yang, Victoria, Huey Yih, and everyone in 3 Ren
the familiar friends........
I was so happy =D
and ohhhhh
I saw Shelby =D =D =D
to be honest, she's prettier =D
and we wandered around the school
we talk and laugh and laugh and laugh


during the gotong-royong
i didnt help
i didnt clean an inch
ok i feel sooooooo guilty now
next time, I promise =D


today is the happiest day =D
I love today so much



Happy Birthday, Shelby

where's my lucky star?

Please forgive me for being so “ngam cham”
because, I really really extremely don’t like my class.
Chatted with Qing Yan about our days.
Our days in 3 Ren ( yeah I know the previous post is about 2 Xin and now it’s about 3 Ren xD) ,
the nights in Pangkor, the beautiful memories, the laughter, the relaxation, the craziness, the happiness, the atmosphere in class.

They were like ages ago, but they were so recent
I really miss those days, I miss them so deeply
I couldn't not talk, I couldn't not laugh, I couldn't not scream, I couldn't not gossip
because that's me
this is what I did for the past 3 years
and nobody is doing all these with me now
goshhhh
these is the worst part of my secondary school life
could someone just in 4S(Ren) cheer me up?
or go crazy with me?
or at least, laugh at my jokes?


awww
why i'm like a prisoner
i'm like a nerd who doesnt talk and lack of EQ and what u so call what-a-nerd-looks-like
goshhhh


actually
I am crazy
I can go wild
I can laugh and laugh for an hour
I have extremely high EQ
I am so friendly

can i just scream

i need a calculator but i dont have one. wtf

who the hell stole took and didnt want to but totally forgotten about it?
gosh i'm in science stream and i dont even have a bloody calculator!!

awww why cant she just gimme back. damn it!

still not very close with my new classmates
they are like so good in their studies and homework and they won't cheat in exams
i'm like, i do everything opposite of what they do



the guy sitting beside me -- Albert
he brought a stack of books, with colorful pages and drawings in every page
apparently they are 3 zhong's 班刊
i think 2 Xin's 班刊 is nicer *shhhhhhhh*


it makes me think of 2 Xin
2 Xin that went through so much with me
2 Xin that gave so much happy memories, memories that kept on filming in my mind
2 Xin that was so united
2 Xin that hate hippo so much
2 Xin that go everywhere in a group
2 Xin that i couldn't stop thinking of
2 Xin that allowed me to make so many best friends
2 Xin that couldn't be replaced

i miss 2 Xin so much




when can i show my true colours???
i wanna scream
i wanna laugh loudly
i wanna gossip
i wanna read Seventeen
i wanna sing in my class
i wanna comb my hair
i wanna sleep in my class
i want them







why the hell did the school arrange me to this class ???

random update

5/1/2009

一进到校门口
我是转右边的
因为
我是高中生 =)

食堂大楼看到的人都穿长裤比较顺眼
不用看到那些可恶的脚毛
aDong穿长裤帅上加帅
蓝志峰穿长裤后不用看到以前高高的裤子
铭豪和志远穿长裤好像高了

老师没有换位
因为我们已经高中了 =)

第一天有点闷
秀菁去duty了
留下我和彬欣...闷到
除了有闷到其他的都蛮顺利


6/1/2009

这天也是很闷
我在陌生的环境下EQ是很低的
要叫要喊要笑都没人陪
一直找Victoria


7/1/2009

第一天上课
那个屁股翘的屁股真的很翘
那个电脑老师一点都不像会电脑的
那个我隔壁的很厉害 那个三角学他什么都会

那个他在想什么? 又是很讨厌却很熟悉的陌生感 之前的亲切感去了哪里?
第一次召回
站在4S(xiao)开心很多
就算只是跟佩韵和青艳讲话都笑到肚子痛
不过他们的老师一直盯着我

今天跟hueyyih, aHeong, yiyi 一起下课
吃完后有个aunty来收碟
她就看着我们 好吃吗?
we said yes briefly
and then she looked at me
你是初一啊?
omg she was so mean
how could she??!!!!!!
awwwww
and my mean friends laughed so loud
ok..i'm short!!



2009年
我要进戏剧学会
发挥我的才华, my hidden talent xD