If I were a boy, I swear I'd be a better man

i love it when......6 of us shared a Roti Tissue for breakfast ♥

i love it when......yan invented the name "杰里米 LIT" ♥

i love it when......3 of us teased jojo with the word 杰里米LIT ♥

i love it when......8 of us squeezed in a toyota to DBKL ♥

i love it when......i was enjoying myself in DBKL ♥

i typed something i wanted to say and this youarenotimportantanymore thought came across my mind and i erased everything =/

First thing first, nege hagosipeunmal

oh..Hey, dusty blog

nth much to say, but err..there's still sth to say

i needa express my admiration for this "special someone"

i can feel an explosion in my heart and the acceleration of my heart beats is telling me that i'm going crazy over this "special someone"

there's only one song in my current winamp playlist, which is Let Me Be The One, one of their new songs from their latest album, Destination, and i've heard it a hundred times and it still has the same affect on me as the first time.

so erm..at first i thought he was "quite handsome only", after realizing he was actually "really handsome", and now i am totally crazy over him

Kim Hyung Jun, a Korean pop singer, dancer, rapper, DJ and a member of SS501

:D

he's only 23!!!!

Lim Siew Ching, u may think that i am insane, because i also think i am xD

if you know what I mean

I'd Lie --

I don't think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colors in his eyes

He'll never fall in love
He swears, as he runs his fingers through his hair
I'm laughing 'cause I hope he's wrong
And I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke, I fake a smile
That I know all his favorite songs

And I could tell you
His favorite color's green
He loves to argue
Born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him
I'd lie

He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn't a light go on
Doesn't he know that I've had him memorized for so long
And he sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don't let nobody see me wishin' he was mine

I could tell you
His favorite color's green
He loves to argue
Born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him
I'd lie

He stands there, then walks away
My God, if I could only say
I'm holding every breath for you

He'd never tell you
But he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything but my heart
First thought when I wake up is
My God, he's beautiful
So I put on my make-up
And pray for a miracle

Yes, I could tell you
His favorite color's green
And he loves to argue
Oh, and it kills me
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him...
if you ask me if I love him...
I'd lie

Teardrops on my guitar --

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without

Drew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky 'cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight

'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see

well, that's exactly how I feel

I just love how her songs can relate to everything that a normal teen experiences (:

Things always don't turn out that way

Non-Academic Things I've Learned in School Today

1. Some humans are irresponsible.

When problems arise they just disappear then reappear and pretend to ask you if everything is alright. wtf. Or worse, they don't even care, they get what they want and now I'm the bad guy.

2. I get really sad when my soul mate is really sad.

Yeah, I do. Err not trying to make her feel guilty, but is this one of those soulmatething? I don't do like what other people do, when I get the feeling that she needs to be alone, I leave her alone.

3. I'm a good listener but not really a good adviser.

=/

4. I'm a magnet for misunderstandings.

Every time when I was misunderstood I keep quiet and that led to angers and more misunderstandings but I don't care.

goodbye :)

我.

不甘愿 不忍心 不想要

because

you.

have no idea AT ALL!

no, am not frustrated. Wanna spill everything out to u, but that will be really weird. What happened last year was a lesson to me, an experience from a good friend of mine made me chicken out.

you gave me excitements, lessons and tears, in a way u never knew.

THANK YOU! am gonna leave my own life now (: without you? yeah, am trying

nonono it was not fine

Guilt, guilts and more guilts.

I pretend that the guilt vanishes but it actually just hides in the dark corner of my heart. I can't breathe, I need air, I need a break. It's only the beginning of March but I already feel like dying. I tried, I tried not to make the same mistake, it still happened eventually. I couldn't prove my trustworthiness.

Point the finger here, guilty is charged.

a schoolgirl churshed on forbidden fruit

these are going to end soon, as they were not even supposed to happen.

This is wrong but
I can't help but feel like
There ain't nothing more right babe
Misty morning comes again and I can't
Help but wish I could see your face

And I knew from the first note played I'd be breaking all my rules to see you
You smile that beautiful smile
And all the girls in the front row scream your name

So dim that spotlight, tell me things like
I can't take my eyes off of you
I'm no one special, just another wide-eyed girl
Who's desperately in love with you
Give me a photograph to hang on my wall
Superstar

Good morning

Loneliness comes around when I'm not dreaming about you
When my world wakes up today you'll be in another town
And I knew when I saw your face I'd be
Counting down the ways to see you
And you smile that beautiful smile
And all the girls in the front row scream your name

So dim that spotlight, tell me things like
I can't take my eyes off of you
I'm no one special, just another wide-eyed girl
Who's desperately in love with you
Give me a photograph to hang on my wall
Superstar

You played in bars, you play guitar
And I'm invisible and everyone knows who you are
And you'll never see, you sing me to sleep
Every night from the radio

So dim that spotlight, tell me things like
I can't take my eyes off of you
I'm no one special, just another wide-eyed girl
Who's desperately in love with you
Give me a photograph to hang on my wall
Superstar
Sweet, sweet superstar
Superstar

Taylor Swift's new single -- Superstar. Go youtube it :)

i never knew until i was there

watched our travelling photos in an aunt's house

flashbacks to where we were. memories of a great trip. touching stories behind the photos. recalled our funny nicknames. things we've never done in malaysia. relaxing boat rafting session. misty weather, cold and fine drisk. beautiful UNESCO ancient town, with clean and clear drain water (ps there were fishes in the drains, FISHES-DRAINS) . colorful padding jackets. my favorite green scarf. delicious food, western and chinese. friendly and sociable tour guide.

we really had a wonderful time.

for 2010, i'm not involve in any of their travelling plans. i really enjoy travelling, though they always say i'm too young to travel.

study hard, and my next destination will be us or uk, with a dslr camera, and sharon's scarf hanging around my neck. spm, i'm gonna knock u down

when you are thinking of someone every second

bored (bɔrd)

blasé, disinterested , dull, fatigued, inattentive, sick and tired, spiritless, tired, turned off

definition of bored:

when you wake up in the afternoon and have brunch and stick your buttock to the chair in front of your computer and wander around the internet and begin to visit sites like facebook, blogger and youtube. Or when you click onto Computer-Local Disk (B)-Torrent Downloads and start browsing through movies and dramas that you've never watched

for the whole day!!!

30/11/2009 [13.24]

Me: SC, are you at home now?

SC: yeah..why?

Me: I'm on the way to your house now. I will arrive in like, 5 minutes

lol. this is cool. I sound cool xD

Hwang Tae Kyung-Kang Gun Woo-Jang Geun Suk 장근석

i'm really crazy over him, like crazzzzzzzzzzy. I shall continue to stalk him in YouTube (:

THIEVES ARE BRAINLESS

some bloody idiots broke into my house and stole loads of our precious belongings

brainless thieves. i dont expect them to be taught to think with their brains because if they were, they wouldn't steal people's belongings

they stole loads of priceless jewelleries. Most of them are given by my grandmothers and grandfathers, priceless and meaningful. And grandma's old notes before she passed away, very meaningful to dad. Passports, IC, birth certificates, important documents are all gone. wtf

I AM SO ANGRY AND FRUSTRATED NOW

hides my true shape like Dorian Gray

蒲公英的约定 周杰伦

小学篱芭旁的蒲公英
是记忆里有味道的风景
午睡操场传来蝉的声音
多少年后也还是很好听
将愿望折纸飞机寄成信
因为我们等不到那流星
认真投决定命运的硬币
却不知道到底能去哪里
一起长大的约定
那样清晰打过勾的我相信
说好要一起旅行
是你如今唯一坚持的任性
在走廊上罚站打手心
我们却注意窗边的蜻蜓
我去到哪里你都跟很紧
很多的梦在等待着进行
一起长大的约定
那样真心
与你聊不完的曾经
而我已经分不清
你是友情还是错过的爱情

与你聊不完的曾经 而我已经分不清 你是友情还是错过的爱情

三人游 方大同

有些话你选择不对他说
你说某种脆弱 我才感同身受
我永远都愿意当个听众 安慰你的痛
保护着你从始至终
就算你的爱 属于他了
就算你的手 他还牵着
就算你累了 我会在这
一人盯 两人疚 三人游
悄悄的 远远的 或许舍不得
默默地 静静地 或许很值得
我还在某处守候着
说不定这也是一种幸福的资格
至少我们中还有人能快乐
这样就已足够了
有些话我选择保持沉默
别把实话说破 隐藏我的寂寞
你的情绪依然把我牵动
躲在你心中 角落的心事我们懂
不知道 不知道 不知道
为什么 为什么 我的爱
我的爱 还留不住你的离开
却总在等待着你回来
说不定 这也是一种 得不到的 却美好的
至少我们中还有人能快乐 这样就已经够了





How to tell a fake smile from a real one? A real smile is genuine and sincere with happiness and joy, it is automatic and not thought about. A fake smile is just being polite rather than a true expression of a sincere joy and happiness, like flights attendants and pilots as they greet and welcome their passengers.

the idea of googling abt this just came out of nowhere =)

it's crazy but it's true

These things happen to me because I am Koo May Yi





I've tried to hide it so that no one knows, but I dunno if it shows when you look into my eyes

I don't care as long as you're written in my history

Ain't nothing but a heartache, ain't nothing but a mistake

If I could right the wrongs

Wish you'd come and set me free so that I can see all the things I've left behind

I'm saying goodbye to you. Bye, Love


If I wasn't such a fool right now I'd be holding you
crap. I just wanna be random at this moment. I wanna face this alone.


I've spent 2 hours searching for Backstreet Boys' songs in YouTube and googling lyrics. oh I used to love Nick Carter. I've found out the random lyrics that has been in my head for 2 weeks.

a nerd would say exam is cool but i say exam makes me starve because i only eat 1 meal in school

i dont need to get up in the middle of the night getting all panicky because a. i haven't finished studying, i still have a whole chapter of bio b. wth my bus is arriving in 5 minutes and i dont have time to wash my hair

it wasn't like the last semester. i did pass yearS paper and hide my shyness to ask my genius friends everything abt maths which is basically every questions. they must be thinking god i dont wanna talk abt maths with her. and it makes me really nervous whenever yee loong shakes his head and says haizzzzzzzzz or when zhen pan says 神保佑你吧 or when i say harrrr? to hang sheng when he explains abt trigo.

we sort of formed a study group. i never tried to study in a big group before, this is my first time, with siew ching, wan yeen, wai sum, yee loong, zhen pan, hang sheng n soon ching. we studied together during the 2 days before exam, we ate lunch in uma and went to hang sheng's condo. i felt different, most of them were very hardworking, and i got affected too. somehow i just feel like something is missing, though we laughed a lot.

all i did after my last paper was gave a weak smile and gave teohuixin a 10 and the first thing that came into my mind was carol's pendrive =)

later on we went to sunway Red Box. i sang my lungs out when it came to Pink's So What, even when everyone stopped singing, including Victoria.

the most humiliating part was when luan mao couldn't stop laughing whenever i started singing because his hsin can sing so well and my singing was totally "stunning" (hsin, told ya xD) haha so he just laughed his ass off even a single key went wrong though it wasn’t just a single key

I came home with a sore throat, and it upgraded to fever the following morning and high fever the next day =( and i couldn't make it to sam's sweet 16, a big apology, sam =(

Because I don't blog for other people. Because I don't give a damn about your life